A little more about my last post

Just something to add on from my last post. My moms surgery is scheduled for Monday, and they are saying she might not make it through cause her heart is too weak. Im not sure of the time for her surgery but pray for her. Sunday morning me and Bobby will be heading to go see her. Blair is taking a bus in the morning. So we will all be there for her. Keep Blair in your prayers as she travels and then me and Bobby as we travel out Sunday.

I'm not ready to lose her yet..

So, my mom is in the hospital again, and they really dont know what is wrong with her. And when I talk to her, I can really understand her well to find out if there is anything new. There is something wrong with something in her lungs thats causing her to not talk so well, and she barely has a voice.
Well today I talked to her, they were suppose to do a scope thing down in her lungs and it ended up being canceled due to a Code Blue. Well they rescheduled it to Monday. While doing it, they are going to be cutting or scarpping something in her lungs to do some test. The cutting can cause some bleeding around her heart. The doctors said doing this give her a 50% chance in dying. The doctors can make another cut to help releave pressure on her heart if it does cause some bleeding, but she could still die from it.
I'm trying So hard to be strong through this but its so hard. Im not ready to lose her yet. Thats my mom. I know if its her time, I should just let her go, and she would be somewhere much better then here. She wouldnt have to suffer with all of these health problems anymore. I just dont know if I can go on without her around.
This is all kind of making me regret leaving Ohio and coming back to Illinois. She has been in the hospital twice since I have left. Joe and Chris left ealier to go see her. They are all thinking she isnt going to make it. I just dont know what to do.

Please Prey for her.

Sorry for the lack of updates

So, not much has been going on. One really good thing has happened though. I got on the Link Card! It has been so helpful. I can help Chris and Holly out with groceries for the time I am here. Kaiden did end up getting Broncitus again. This time they put him on breathing treatments. It helped alot. It took us alittle to get the meds for him though. They were saying the meds werent covered on the medical card and wanted me to pay for them. There was no way I was going to be able to afford them. I had to wait til the following day, cause it was sunday, to call Kaiden's doctor. (We took him to the Urgent Care sunday, the doctor there is the one who prescribed the nebulizer treatments.) They called and tried to figure out the problem. After two days we was able to get the meds for kaiden. The things was is they wanted to mix in some saline stuff with the albuterol for the treatments, mixed together already it wasnt covered, so we had to get them separetly. It was a relief.

Morgan and I have been getting things ready for Kaiden's birthday party next month. Can you believe it has been almost a year now! He is getting so big. Preacher is going to let us have the party at the church in the basement. We have so much to do and Party day is March 21. Which also happens to be my 19th birthday! Im not doing anything for mine. Kaidens is more important then mine.

So what else...I havent herd anything about an apartment yet, so Im still in Manito. I did an application for Brook Meadows now too. I would much rather be in Sunset Hills. But either would work I guess.

Oh Kaiden can walk! He isnt the best but he can do it.

This was a last week I think. I was super gorgeous outside so all the kids went out to play.

Oh and so, Mrs. Kristy, this is something you probably wouldnt want to hear but I still have to tell you. I did get a new tattoo and a new piercing...The piercing is on my ear though and not my face. The tattoo is on my upper back/neck.

Here is the ear. Its called the Tragus.

And here is the tattoo. This one has meaning to it. The big star represents me and my life, and the little star represents Kaiden.