Long over Due!

So yeah, I havent posted in a really, really long time. Nothing has really happened though. The apartment is going great. It gets lonely being just me and Kaiden, but we make it.
I am planning on going to go get my GED soon! Pray for that. Then after that I was thinking about taking some online college courses. I havent really decided what kind of degree I want to presue yet. Im still workin on that. I have a few in mind. I was thinking A degree in Marketing, Communications, or Pharmacy. Those are what I have came up. Im still looking into all of them and learning more about them, and what all I would be able to do. Any other suggestions you think might intrest me? I will look them up and do some research on them.

I still havent yet posted apartment pictures like I said I was going to do. I havent got any. I need to either get my camera fixed or get a new one. As soon as I get some I will post them.

Im so proud of myself!

I have been trying to lose some weight since February. I never did lose the extra baby weight after Kaiden, and after checking my BMI, with my height of 5'1, I was considered to be overweight. I had a new years resolution to lose some weight and get back into shape. I have been keeping track of my weight, my starting weight on Feb. 18, 2009 was 142. As of this morning May 9, 2009 I was 133! I have lost 9 pounds! I am so pround of myself. There have been so many times I have tried to lose weight, but never stuck to the plan. The only thing I have been doing so far is eating better. I eat smaller amounts of food, I dont snack throughout the day,I eat less junk, and I have pretty much cut Mountain Dew out of my life! I think I have about 2 cans a month. Can you believe I actually cut Mountain Dew out!? I havent started exercising yet, I will get to that. But just by eating better I have lost 9 pounds. I guess for my height an appropriate weight for me would be 96lbs - 127lbs. Im getting it there. I think for now Im looking to get to about 125 ish. If I reach 130, I will be at the pre-pregnancy weight.
Did I mention Im so proud of myself! haha.


Also, living back in Pekin now, I can start going back to church on a regular basis! I have missed going, I was bummed I wasnt able to go regularly. I cant wait to go back.

Prayer Answered!

These keys would be the keys to my very own new apartment! Im so excited. I got the keys yesterday and signed the lease. We are going to start moving in today. Its a two bedroom so Kaiden can finally have his own room. I wont be actually start staying there until the 4th of May. I wont have the money to buy anything I need until then. But yeah! Just thought I would share with you the awesome news! I will post pictures of the apartment when I can!

5 years and counting!

Just thought I would share that today is my....

5 Year Spiritual Birthday!


Thanks Mrs. Kristy for showing me the way!

God is so awesome!

I have had so many prayers answered for me these last few months. Mainly all about the apartment situation. Since my last post about the phone call, I went to fill out the papers, and then they said they would get it all through the system and would be giving me a call. A few weeks later they called me back, and told me that I had a light bill to pay before they could do anything further. Right then and there I though I was done cause I wouldnt have no way to come up the money and I didnt even know how much it was. I called Cilco a few days later and found out that it was 180.64, which isnt too bad. But still I didnt have the money, and no way to come up with the money. Im living off of 147.00 a month. Its tough but I make it. But after talking to some friends and lots of prayer, I got the money for the bill! I piad the bill yesterday, Now all I have to do is take in a copy of the receipt to the Sunset Office. Im doing that tomorrow. Then taking a copy of the receipt to Sunset Hills. I am closer then ever to getting this apartment. It took me about a week to get the money, but I got it. Prayer is such an amazing thing.

Then I am going to be needing a job to keep up with my cilco once I get moved in. Well on Wednesday I went to Career Link, and filled out an application for this summer job program they do. It pays 8.50 to 9.50 an hour, and they pay for babysitting. They said in the next few weeks someone would be calling me. Well the very next day, I got a phone call from them, wanting me to come in to fill out some more stuff and get copies of my birth certificate, SS card and my ID. I went in Friday to do that. They said I definetly qualifiy cause of having food stamps and medical card. They told me someone would be calling me when they need someone for a job. They said it would start in about June. They said lots of people have called needing help for the summer, like the YWCA, Salvation Army, different office type setting places, and such. I know its just for the summer, but it is a start, and you have to start somewhere right? This place can also help me get permanet job after the summer is over with also. Im so glad I found this place. Im learning more and more about its sevice's that it provides.

Continue to pray for me through the rest of this.

A Huge answer to prayer!

Ok well, when I am able to make it in for church, in sunday school I would always have a prayer request for an apartment to open up so I can get out on my own. I have been doing this since about August of 08'.
Well this morning, I got a phone call. I missed it because I had my phone on vibrate, and didnt have my phone on me. The person left a voice mail. I listened to it. It was something similar to this.
"Hi Contessa, this is Beth? from the Sunset hill apartments in Pekin. I just wanted to call and see if we can schedule a time for you to come in an fill out some pre move in papers." Then she gave me the number to call them back.
I immediatly called them back, and we scheduled it for tomorrow at 3:00pm. She told me they have an apartment opening up soon, and want to fill out the papers. I am totally excited about this. I can finally be out on my own, in Pekin, and be able to get back in church on a regular basis. I could get a job too. So please pray everything goes well tomorrow. Im so ready to be on my own!

Update on Mom

So, there isnt really much more on my mom. She is still in the hospital, but she gets to go home sometime tonight! Im not really sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing yet. The doctors still dont know whats wrong with her. I left Ohio Tuesday, the day after her scope surgery thing. Wednesday they did a stress test on her, and Thursday they did surgery again, same thing as last time basically just this time instead of going down through her mouth they made an incision about 2 inches long on her neck. The first time they didnt get the samples they needed. So with the second surgery they got what they needed. I was talking to my mom today and she was telling since I left Ohio she had 2 heart attacks, they caught them. She said the first one happened during her stress test, and she lost track of what she was talking about so she didnt say when the second one happened. But she gets to go home. They are going to set her up with some oxygen and they will have a nurse that comes out to check on her and see how she is doing.

That is all I basical know right now. I will try to keep you all posted.

A little more about my last post

Just something to add on from my last post. My moms surgery is scheduled for Monday, and they are saying she might not make it through cause her heart is too weak. Im not sure of the time for her surgery but pray for her. Sunday morning me and Bobby will be heading to go see her. Blair is taking a bus in the morning. So we will all be there for her. Keep Blair in your prayers as she travels and then me and Bobby as we travel out Sunday.

I'm not ready to lose her yet..

So, my mom is in the hospital again, and they really dont know what is wrong with her. And when I talk to her, I can really understand her well to find out if there is anything new. There is something wrong with something in her lungs thats causing her to not talk so well, and she barely has a voice.
Well today I talked to her, they were suppose to do a scope thing down in her lungs and it ended up being canceled due to a Code Blue. Well they rescheduled it to Monday. While doing it, they are going to be cutting or scarpping something in her lungs to do some test. The cutting can cause some bleeding around her heart. The doctors said doing this give her a 50% chance in dying. The doctors can make another cut to help releave pressure on her heart if it does cause some bleeding, but she could still die from it.
I'm trying So hard to be strong through this but its so hard. Im not ready to lose her yet. Thats my mom. I know if its her time, I should just let her go, and she would be somewhere much better then here. She wouldnt have to suffer with all of these health problems anymore. I just dont know if I can go on without her around.
This is all kind of making me regret leaving Ohio and coming back to Illinois. She has been in the hospital twice since I have left. Joe and Chris left ealier to go see her. They are all thinking she isnt going to make it. I just dont know what to do.

Please Prey for her.

Sorry for the lack of updates

So, not much has been going on. One really good thing has happened though. I got on the Link Card! It has been so helpful. I can help Chris and Holly out with groceries for the time I am here. Kaiden did end up getting Broncitus again. This time they put him on breathing treatments. It helped alot. It took us alittle to get the meds for him though. They were saying the meds werent covered on the medical card and wanted me to pay for them. There was no way I was going to be able to afford them. I had to wait til the following day, cause it was sunday, to call Kaiden's doctor. (We took him to the Urgent Care sunday, the doctor there is the one who prescribed the nebulizer treatments.) They called and tried to figure out the problem. After two days we was able to get the meds for kaiden. The things was is they wanted to mix in some saline stuff with the albuterol for the treatments, mixed together already it wasnt covered, so we had to get them separetly. It was a relief.

Morgan and I have been getting things ready for Kaiden's birthday party next month. Can you believe it has been almost a year now! He is getting so big. Preacher is going to let us have the party at the church in the basement. We have so much to do and Party day is March 21. Which also happens to be my 19th birthday! Im not doing anything for mine. Kaidens is more important then mine.

So what else...I havent herd anything about an apartment yet, so Im still in Manito. I did an application for Brook Meadows now too. I would much rather be in Sunset Hills. But either would work I guess.

Oh Kaiden can walk! He isnt the best but he can do it.

This was a last week I think. I was super gorgeous outside so all the kids went out to play.

Oh and so, Mrs. Kristy, this is something you probably wouldnt want to hear but I still have to tell you. I did get a new tattoo and a new piercing...The piercing is on my ear though and not my face. The tattoo is on my upper back/neck.

Here is the ear. Its called the Tragus.

And here is the tattoo. This one has meaning to it. The big star represents me and my life, and the little star represents Kaiden.